Handbag

[nfotxn]

I want more from life. School is fine but I'd feel just as satisfied doing other things, it really is just hoop jumping.

I dunno if I'll ever forgive myself for droping out before I came out. It'll always be present in my mind that I could be 1½ years ahead of where I am now. I could be at university living on my own.

And I wonder if that loss will ever be out of my horizon of thought? When will that really be? I feel like I should have just bit the bullet and came out after I moved away.. now I have to deal with the fucking inquisition every time I talk to people "Why aren't you university now?" or "So what, you were depressed, why'd you have to quit school?"

Comments

[jenneferre.livejournal.com]

There aren't many things worth doing that you can do without an education, though.

The past is the past. There's nothing you can do about it. I can't count the things I wish I had or hadn't done. All I know is I wouldn't be the same person I am now, if I hadn't done things the way I had; now would you. And all things aside, I'm happy with who I am. And I think you are, too.

Be content with knowing you actually know where you're headed. And you're on your way there. Highschool is the first step.

As for people who ask bloody stupid questions? Well you can't be responsible for their ignorance. So answer however you see fit, but don't be ashamed or embarassed. If they have to ask, they clearly don't understand, and you shouldn't get upset over it.

We all have our trials in life. Just think what you've dealt with already - it's all smooth sailing herein.

Two tears in a bucket; mutherfuckit.

[plaidninja.livejournal.com]

Can you guarentee that if you'd saved up coming out till you were away at university that you wouldn't have droped out then? Would you rather have lost an entire year of very expesive education, or a year of publicly funded education?
I think you'll be hard pressed to find any person over the age of 25 that hasn't gotten off track in their life at some point. You may feel like you're behind the game right now, but it all evens out in the end. Besides, you'll reach the finish line exactly when you're supposed to and not one second before.

In case that wasn't laced with enough bad sports metaphors here's some other not quite inspirational sayings:
stay the course.
take it one day at a time.
it's a game of inches.

and who could forget

it aint over till the fat lady sings.



*Hugsforbrodie*

[dancubca.livejournal.com]

As you know, when I dropped out of high school at 15, I spent the following 15 years doing the self indulgent thing. What cracks me up is through all that "life experience" I ultimately learned that what I really needed was an education!

At times I wish I could go back and do it over again, but that would mean I wouldn't be where I am. That would suck for many reasons!

You're not hoop jumping--you're preparing for a better future. Chin up!

[nimbuscub.livejournal.com]

"now I have to deal with the fucking inquisition every time I talk to people 'Why aren't you university now?' or 'So what, you were depressed, why'd you have to quit school?'"

Don't get mad, get stabby.

[mathan.livejournal.com]

Be glad that you were able to come out at a relatively young age.

It took me to third year university, my Dad's death and a $10,000.00 year in England before I came out. :o) I wouldn't change it for a thing as it's helped to shape me as I am today.

And as a result of my coming out and the drama that comes with it, I also screwed up my fourth year. Luckily it only caused me to be six months behind as I was already planning to do my degree in four and a half years. Along the lines of what Dan said, it did cause me to waste money.

You've gone through an important milestone in your life. Many kids at your age are screwing up their first year of university because of the things that are going on - first time away from home, coming out, getting used to being independent. I think you may have gotten through that, but in high school instead of carrying it with you to University. You'll have some getting used to, when you get to University (I'm making the assumption you want to go to University based on what you said), but I think you'll have a year of maturity ahead of everyone else. That will help to buy you sometime and get you through your degree with a minimum of drama. If things do go haywire, just keep plugging along as best you can. Get that degree or diploma and you'll be set.

Be proud of your accomplishments.

[mathan.livejournal.com]

And something I forgot to mention...

No matter how small your accomplishments are, they are your accomplishments and you should be proud of them. Fuck anyone else who thinks otherwise.

[beardoc.livejournal.com]

Agreed. You're still at an age where it's still very possible to do what you want to do. It's still very easy to right any wrongs that in hindsight you might think you have made. It may take an extra year here or there, but it's small in the big scheme of things if it puts you on track again. I'm 26 and have never had a long-term fulltime job. And I'll be around 35 when I fully finish studies. Consider that. You're still likely to be finishing WAY ahead of me.

[lostncove.livejournal.com]

Other people = stupid thoughtless Philistine opinions.

Remember this, O fledgling artist. It's a formula that will serve you well.

[sultmhoor.livejournal.com]

1 ¹/₂ years?
1 ½ years?

[nfotxn.livejournal.com]

Yes, 1½ years. I got my metacharacter mis-spelt.

timing

[ex-ikuze443.livejournal.com]

First off, I have to say that the only heroes I have are the kids that come out as queer during high school. That takes a lot of guts, any way you look at it. Mad ups, Brodie. (I can't believe I just said "mad ups" but what the hell.)

Secondly, timing is irrelevant. Getting things done is the important thing. A few years ago, I had to spend Christmas dealing with my brother showing up drunk, and depressed about where he was with his life. What he really wanted to be was an auto mechanic, but he wouldn't get the good jobs (and the livable wages) until he went through school and got certified. The conversation outside in our mom's driveway (after I stopped him beating up his own car) went something like this:

Bro: It'll take over a year to get through school, Jason! Over a year! I'll be 26 when I get out of school!
Me: Yeah, but if you don't go through school, you'll end up 26, anyway. At least with school, you'll be 26 and have certification. What matters is that you did it, not when you did it.

That calmed him down, and a couple months later he was in school. He's a lot better off for it.

Here's another way to look at it. When you were out of school, you weren't exactly sitting around on your ass. You were experimenting with design, getting better with your music, and were exposed to a lot of other stuff, I'm sure. If you decide to go to university once you finish high school, you'll be that much more prepared to pick your course of study. I can't tell you how valuable that will be! (Speaking from experience, I can tell you how much of a drag it is to get through two and a half years of college before realizing that you're completely uninterested in pursuing a career in the field you've been studying that whole time. Fortunately, I was lucky and things have seemed to work themselves out, but that's another story entirely.)