Psycho Analysis

I went and saw a specialist today. Dr. John Chong is a doctor who takes an interesting approach to all sorts of injuries in musicians. That trauma and stress manifest physically in things like depression and make you susceptable to all sorts of repetitive stress injuries and Bad Things in general. The neuro-transmittor inhibitors I'm on treat the symptoms but our goal is to deal with the things that caused the damage to begin with. So he psycho analyses me for a while and comes up with things such as abandoment issues surrounding Dad and the absolutely necessity of music in my life. Nothing earth shattering here really.

So I have been prescribed viola lessons and we will be titrating my medication next month. I have a few other short term goals such as returning to school full time, I've been there rather infrequently lately while sorting out the drugs and finding a job. Mostly I need to fill my time with useful things. Anyhow, the first steps in the right direction were taken today. I often doubt my ability to follow through but I have faith I can do it this time.

A big thanks goes out to all my friends who've been there for me, you know who you are. And of course the kindness of near-strangers here on Livejournal. Your combined generosity of support has been tremendous. Not outta the woods yet but I've discovered moths active in night time sleep on the north side of trees during the day. It's true. It has to be, I heard it on the CBC.