The downtime's a killer: part 3

[nfotxn]

I am not in a good mood today.

I've been having terrible dreams about going back to school. I'm at my elementary school and I get in trouble for questioning the teacher. I get sent to the principal's office and then my back molars fall out. That would be three nights in a row now.

I'm really stressed out about going back to school, I mean christ I'm almost 20 years old now. I'm gonna try to chill out and just get on with it, but there's a lot in the air about this. I'd be lying if I said there wasn't tons of pressure from family, friends and myself. This is attempt #3 now, seriously. I mean, stuff was messed up then and I got help and sorted myself out. I just hope this time won't be like the others, for a lot of reasons that are really even too personal to write here. Just the sorta stuff you discuss with your shrink, stuff I'm pretty sure I'm over.

I guess, in the end, what I want to do is leave this period of myself without regrets. To convince myself that this extra time was necessary. But I'm having a hard time doing that, at least right now. Maybe in five years it'll be different. Time will tell.

Comments

[bigrock.livejournal.com]

You'll get through it *HUGS*. Just think, once you get that next degree, you'll be making more money. :) yay! happy thoughts!

Fun Times!!

[sithion.livejournal.com]

I can relate my friend, we'll have to talk sometime. I toke a year off Highschool, then went back. The parents say "no pressure, as long as your happy!" WHATEVER!! It's rather hard to deal with. Each situation is different of course, but I'm sure there is some similarities. I finished highschool when I was 20. Now, i've been to Western University, and Fanshawe. One can only imagine what the parents are saying now. Parents love us, but we can read them like a book. Everything happenes for a reason though, I hope.

[notofthisworld.livejournal.com]

Hey, 20's not so bad. When I was in high school, we had a mother of 7 in our grade. (I'm guessing she was about 40.) She integrated just fine.

And everyone likes the mature-age students because they always get their assignments done on time. They're great for group assessment :-)

But don't start thinking you're a 16-year old just because you work your day job with them.

And don't let teachers forget that you're not a kid, either. Let them know that you're a legal adult. It wouldn't hurt if you dressed a bit more maturely than the other students. Some pressed shirts and slacks can go a long way.

[cub4bear.livejournal.com]

You're smart enough to do it, no problem; you just need to focus.

Good luck.