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I'm having a very emotional day today. Not sure why. I feel again very much at a loss of control over my space and myself. Everything seems chaotic with the packing and all. I'm just barely staying on schedule with everythng I need to do before my Aunt Deb comes to visit because shortly after that we move and Toronto pride is immediately after. *inhales*

I have a feeling this won't go off without a hitch, although I will try my darnedest[sic] to make it.

I think I've figured out why I've been flaking out so much the past few weeks. I've lost control of my direction again. It happens far too easily. I'm really starting to begin the think I'm not improving my lifestyle at all. I've been pointing out faults in others to distract from my own.

Not cool. I'm worried I'm going to become a loser if I keep that much up.

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