Unstable night
Sep. 19th, 2002 01:27 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
nfotxnTonight I went and played my viola.
I love my viola so much, how could I ever have forgotten her?
I often wonder if my love of music is perhaps a coping mechanism for the life I've lived? My interest was never purely academic and infact I think has only ever been for the cartharsis. Without it I tense up and my mind implodes.
Which poses the ultimate question: Why am I so fundamentally disturbed? 'Cause often when I feel, I feel hard or I don't feel at all.
I love my viola so much, how could I ever have forgotten her?
I often wonder if my love of music is perhaps a coping mechanism for the life I've lived? My interest was never purely academic and infact I think has only ever been for the cartharsis. Without it I tense up and my mind implodes.
Which poses the ultimate question: Why am I so fundamentally disturbed? 'Cause often when I feel, I feel hard or I don't feel at all.
