Sex sex sex. Sex? Sex! Ahh, sex.

[nfotxn]

*exhales* Wow, I am all housed out. I want summer to come along so I can play records out on people's decks and eat way too many hamburgers. Ugh, I won't get too down about the weather though, it'll pass!

<vain faggot paragraph>I haven't got to the gym as much as I'd like to. Infact I haven't since last week. I'm supposed to be all getting built and stuff.. I dunno if I'm ever gonna me it happen. Ugh, I just hate being out in the cold! Seriously -8C today, which makes for a nice toasty -18C with wind chill. This friday I'm gonna face the cold and hit the Bear Buddies Toronto Bear Night at La Toolbox de L'amour. Hopefully I'll get laid. No seriously I'm starting to get really really sexually frustrated. The last.. oh.. many encounters I've had have been very brief and/or unsatisfying. WON'T SOMEBODY GIVE ME A FUCKING KISS?! I just wanna be loved, really. I won't make you gay, scout's honour!</vain faggot paragraph>

Little-big towns really suck. All the queer people who stay here are indefinitely fucked up in some way or another. One more year. God I hope I don't go crazy. I mean being a half-way intelligent person is a burden in it's own. Now being a somewhat intelligent queer man in a closed minded closeted town? Yeah, enough explaining, you get the picture: It sucks some of that there steaming donkey shit.

UGH, I feel so repressed right now it's incredible. I just feel like packing up and leaving.

(of course that would be silly)

Comments

*smooch*

[david365.livejournal.com]

Always a kiss to spare for a sweet-heart.....

D.

[brianrdu.livejournal.com]

What happens in a year? And um, I'd lay one on you if I were there. I don't think I've ever told you that. Or much of anything, for that matter. But I read everything.

[bitterlawngnome.livejournal.com]

Persevere, soon you will be free. Living here is not all roses, but at least there's a greenhouse that's free to go and sit in.

[folkyboy.livejournal.com]

ooh a party sounds nice

[birddog.livejournal.com]

Hang in there tiger. I'm a small town boy myself. Well, not really, it was kind of big-- big enough where people could give a shit about each other. When I go there now, I bring a notebook and voila! it becomes material.

You could get all Matmos and record specialized suburban sound bites toward a larger composition. Maybe you could fill this year with one project.

[hylandr.livejournal.com]

Is Bear Buddies night always the third Friday of the month? If I can find my way there, I'd love to visit sometime. Maybe get to meet a few of you guys finally.

[bitterlawngnome.livejournal.com]

Yup, third Friday, except when it would interfere with Xmas or Bacchanal. At some point there may be more info at http://www.bearbuddiestoronto.com

[hylandr.livejournal.com]

Thanks. Maybe I'll consider a road trip some weekend to see what the Toronto bear night is like.

[forest-gnome.livejournal.com]

Teh days will get longer, not shorter. The time will seem to expand to infinity, and it will seem like the day you are to leave and start your life will never come. But finally, your things will be packed, and you will be walking out the door, going someplace, bigger, and in your mind, better.
Just don't forget where you come from; it's so easy to lose yourself in a life you thought you wanted, and give up on those who were left behind.

Try My World

[redcubid.livejournal.com]

You thought living in your town is bad? Try living in Idaho Falls, ID. This place drives me nuts. No one can decide who or what they are. The only thing that you could even come close to laying, is a married guy. Gag! *disgusted sound* So, if you think you got it bad, trying living on the mormon belt. But, the positive thing is, that mormons, will just ignore you if you scream you are gay, with those christian colition people, they'll beat you if you yell.

[notofthisworld.livejournal.com]

Don't make me challenge you to a game of "My town is more stifling and homophobic than your town".

*Hugs*