Misc tidbits

[nfotxn]

Ah, it's time for an update boys and girls. First and foremost I'm starting to feel like myself again which is a more than welcome change. I'm sleeping 7-9 hours a night as opposed to 12+ hours, my outlook on life is more positive and I find I'm able to commicate and not withdrawl in tense social situations again! A perfect example was yesterday when I got my hair cut. The lady who did the deed was of distinctly Hamiltonian background. Still contemplating last month's news, not apt to talk about war (too emotional!) and generally just very, well, quaint! I know that sounds kinda conceited, but it's really the truth. Now you have to understand that Unhappy Brodie would have withdrawn from interaction and just thought bad thoughts but Happy Brodie managed to carry on idle conversation that was engaging enough to pass the time. I think I even really made "Hello! My Name is: Carol" think regarding my views on The War in Iraq.

Must remember: five receipts and I get a free cut at Haircrafters.

I've also got my referral to see a specialist who deals with musicians and illness such that I can try and retain some creativity and the quality of life that I demand. Pairing Effexor (my current anti-depressant) with Wellbutrin is known to minimize some of the nastier side affects such as reduced libido and delayed orgasm. To be honest I'm not thrilled about becoming pharmacologically enhanced but the benefits out weigh the negative aspects. Best of all I still feel very positive about minimizing them.

Today at the supermarket i noticed The Wine Rack, that little slice of engineered veneer floor yuppie paradise by the exit of many Canadian supermarkets, is looking for help. I think I could really get into playing the part of a wine snob in such a place. I have the look and I'm real good at blowing smoke out my ass. Yeah, starfruit overtones, totally. I think it'd be a lot of fun, at least for a while. An added bonus is that 9/10 times you're just sitting around not doing anything. I can smuggle my palm in and read some eBooks to pass the time while still looking studious and interested in my lack of work.

What else? Oh yes! I've suddenly become somewhat prolific in the past few days making music again! It's so refreshing to feel interested in doing the things I love. This Saturday is the Godspeed! You Black Emperor show I bought tickets for and opening is Polmo Polpo whom I'd really like to recommend for those looking for a truly different techno/dance sound.

That's it! I'm outta here to make some curry chicken for dinner.

Comments

[dallasbear.livejournal.com]

howdy, i can empathize with the depression. the effexor made me an insomniac, but i know lots of people who have zero side effects. i have read stories of people turning into nymphos on effexor, as opposed to the standard inability to orgasm. wellbutrin made me nuts but helped out a guy i dated. so it's not exactly a science yet. at least when i was on effexor and couldn't function sexually, i often didn't have a desire to anyways, so i guess i wasn't missing out on too awful much. but, having a sex life and drive is a good thing.

i was numb a lot on my meds but i am not sure if my creative juices were dampened any. i could still dream up songs, and i could still do my writing well enough.

but it feels so much better to be able to function doesn't it!

i'm on soulseek right now, wow, that's where everyone who used to be on winmx went! thank you so much for the heads up!

dallasbear.

[tommybear.livejournal.com]

Wow, as a recent lurker of your LJ, even I can tell the difference between the tone of this entry and your recent past entries. You definently seem a lot more upbeat. As someone who has quite a few social anxiety disorders, but has always refused medication, it's interesting to see that treatment for depression has alleviated you of some of those anxieties quite well. It makes me ponder if I would now be more open to that option when I resume therapy.

Is the new icon the new haircut as well? :)

[tommybear.livejournal.com]

Yes, I see from the link now that *is* the new hair cut. Looks good *grin* real good :)

Faking It

[bigmacbear]

Today at the supermarket i noticed The Wine Rack, that little slice of engineered veneer floor yuppie paradise by the exit of many Canadian supermarkets, is looking for help. I think I could really get into playing the part of a wine snob in such a place. I have the look and I'm real good at blowing smoke out my ass.

Sort of like that guy on TLC's Faking It who thought that a sommelier was a country in Africa? ;-)

Great to hear you're doing better; hope it keeps up. Take care.

[theotherqpc.livejournal.com]

wow...Brodie is *really* up now! congrats on feeling better

[rooooo.livejournal.com]

Mmm.... freshly shorn Brodum. :)

*smooch*

[standardtom.livejournal.com]

I'm glad to hear you're on the upswing, Brodie; it can be quite a process, clibming your way back up, and I remember it well.

Interesting you should mention that about Effexor and Wellbutrin. My partner was recently switched from Zoloft to Effexor, hoping to get some libido back, but he's noticed little difference, and he's always had problems with delayed orgasm anyway, so this is probably just making that worse. I'll mention this combination to him; is this something your doctor mentioned to you, or did you find some information on the web somewhere? It would be great if this would help; I like it when my fella can cum LOL.

[queerdragonfly.livejournal.com]

it's good to hear you're feeling better. nice haircut too ;)

[standardtom.livejournal.com]

BTW... the haircut rocks... RAWR!

Godspeed!

[cinema-air.livejournal.com]

i <3 Godspeed!

but apparently the FBI and Oklahoma Police Force do not.

http://www.pitchforkmedia.com/news/03-03/24.shtml

that link may provoke the unhappy brodie. so stay happy.

Re: Godspeed!

[theotherqpc.livejournal.com]

exactly what does a terrorist look like? rich white clean-shaven male in business suit with powertie?

[folkyboy.livejournal.com]

yeah i feel almost ashamed for NOT being all outright and political about the state of the US right now. i say i need to take time but i fear i'm allowing all the others to do the dirty work for me.

good to see your post tho :) mmm curry

Godspeed

[teljanin.livejournal.com]

I just spoke with my friend Tiffany and she saw them in Columbia MO, heh right after the gas station episode, and she thought they were a lot of fun. I've had their stuff for a whiel but I've just started listening to it more..

[jbear70.livejournal.com]

I like that term - "pharmacologically enhanced". Perhaps I'll drop it in casual conversation and attribute it to you Brodie . Although my medical history is different than yours, I can relate. Since 1991, I've been taking Tegretol to suppress seizure activity. The times when I have siezed are when I've neglected to take the meds on time (back in my younger days in college when I stayed up all night in architectural studio). I'm glad though that your condition is treatable and that you are adjusting your meds. I know for some it isn't or the side effects are too great to overcome. I know many psychotropic drugs affect creativity and mood adversely. I don't know what I would do if I couldn't fulfill what I am most passionate about. I wish you the best of luck.

[werecub.livejournal.com]

woof,

drool ....

Wine Shop

[tcbear.livejournal.com]

I don't really believe anyone at the Wine Rack is a terribly efficient or talented vinter or wine tester or anything...because then they wouldn't be working at Loblaws. Maybe I'm wrong, I think that you can confuse smugness for just general contempt for yuppie customers. I know if I had twenty people a day asking me if this is Wine has more of a "pineapple" or "chocolate" taste or if it is more on the "foxy" side..I'd be wanting to reach over the counter, grab someone by their Club Monaco sweater and give them a good shake. And by the way I like wine :-)