Let's Play House

[nfotxn]

It's one of those evenings full of strife as to my tragic singleness. I haven't dated anyone in nearly two years now. Not a single date. No coffee, no beer, no dinner, movie, county fair or amusement parks.

Nothin'!

What's worse is that I feel really shitty about this no because I want a relationship. I mean meeting The Man of My Dreams would be great, sure. But so would a million bucks or Zeus' cock. It just ain't likely in the cards any time soon.

What sucks is that it's all peer pressure. Self-inflicted yes but peer pressure none-the-less. With the exception of one person all my close friends are in relationships! And no matter how noble your intentions are when you're getting the affection and support that you need from a partner it changes things with your closer friends. There's a sly primordial jealousy likely generated somewhere near my reptilian brain despite my best efforts otherwise. It bubbles up into my conscious brain.

"I don't want to be different! I want be the same and work towards the goal of some consonant and unending state of matrimonial† bliss! We'll pick out flatware and make plans to build equity with a home or similar investment.. together!"

I know, that's totally retarded. Idealistic, biased and simplified. But the fundamental ideas are becoming an ever-growing part of who I am and denying them would be stiffling.

Or maybe I just need to get laid for a change? This isn't a desire I'm prepared to live with.

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Comments

[kubster.livejournal.com]

Sometimes it's all about pure chance, but not being afraid to take a chance either. Everybody gets burned, and everybody gets burned out. But somewhere there's a spark that rekindles the fire inside your heart and then you'll be off again. It's a viscious cycle that we'll never get out of until we find ourselves on the right track, even though you could be on it now, they all feel the same at first, until time tells you when it's just right.

Just a thought.

[notofthisworld.livejournal.com]

I know, that's totally retarded.

Why is that retarded? Everyone thinks stuff like that, even if it isn't manly to admit.

[nfotxn.livejournal.com]

It isn't manly to admit?! Shit, I'm totally busted.

[xbearxrx.livejournal.com]

There's nothing retarded about that... even if I can understand you'd rather not fall into this kind of thinking... It's not funny and it also proves ourselves some kind of weakness we'd all be happy to avoid.

I wish I could get over peer pressure, since confrontation can really push me to the point I'm convinced there's only one way to live things... the right way.

It's cool your friends are all into relationships... at least it would justify my (desperate) need for a lover right now. Contrary to that, I am basically surrounded by friends who has an happy sex life and that are pretty satisfied with giving a few blow jobs on a weekly base to sex buddies met on the net.

I'd rather relate to old-school conservative gay couples. I mean it... Or maybe I just need to get laid... too.

[coltcub.livejournal.com]

...tragic singleness...

this is a serius post but it sounds so dramatic and makes me laught.
in another hand...
""I haven't dated anyone in nearly two years now...""
it happens the same with me

[nfotxn.livejournal.com]

I'm using the drama kind of ironically to add some levity to the situation. It's supposed to be funny.

[coltcub.livejournal.com]

it was
:P

did you take your LJ icon pic after licking a lemon?

[hairbear.livejournal.com]

I find that hard to believe. The only obvious reason you're unattached is because you choose to be for some reason.

[coltcub.livejournal.com]

HA!

the "you are so cute" turns into:
- I just broke with my BF and I'm not ready ...bla bla bla
- you are so good for me ... bla bla bla
- I will call you ...
- I'm a busy man ... bla bla bla
- my partner comes tomorow bla bla bla
- my flight departs at 8:00 am

you are soooo wrong, man

[hairbear.livejournal.com]

Maybe you're trying to go after the guys who show no interest in you. It's funny, isn't it, how a lot of us aren't attracted to the ones around us, but we think we'd go across the country to meet one guy we think is cute. A guy at my church tried to ask me out, but I had nothing in common with him and wasn't attracted to him. I don't go out to bars, so I'm limited to where I can meet men.

[coltcub.livejournal.com]

Most of us likes the "impossible" men, but the truth is that the love do not appears when you want.

I go out to bars and it doen't help so much.

[ultrabithorax.livejournal.com]

O honey, I go through this alla time . . . call me if you need to.

[shawnsyms.livejournal.com]

I think you need an unintelligible Scotsman. Hot!

[nfotxn.livejournal.com]

Ayeyaweepoof!Suckmehcock!

* Big HUGS*

[kenlin.livejournal.com]

Wow, Brodie - yet again you manage to capture what I have been feeling and going through lately in an amazing eloquent manner... I might need to hire you as my personal spokesman.... anyways... enuff about me... back to you....

Life is like the tide - it ebbs and flows - the biggest challenge is how you deal with the low points - this is the time when you are to gather yourself before you are back on the highs of life - now perhaps getting laid my allieviate some of the pains of it - it just works for some people - others it doesn't.... but...

I KNOW you have great things in store for you Brodie Chree - I agree with everyone else - it's not retarded - everyone goes through this... it's simply life - there is a great man in store for you - he's out there...! Now to find him...

[tcbear.livejournal.com]

You know my bias but when we've talked...if it ever got around to the subject you've always said that you're somewhat relationship biased..or I got that feeling despite the fact that you hate the idea of an institutionalized marriage.

Here is my view on it though. Just because you don't like the idea of what marriage, or at least marriage in your experience leads to doesn't mean that you should discount the idea of a relationship, or wanting to be committed to someone, that idea is completely seperate, or can be from that of marriage.

Just because people you know around you are living together, and doing the huzbear thing, doesn't necessarily mean that you're going to end up doing the exact same thing..even with someone you love..but it does go to show that if you're not happy about it..you're probably not quite happy with being rudderlessly single either. Dating really is neither here nor there...you can meet people, without setting out to meet people.

I don't know if its really something you should think about, that if you're looking for that, it might find you, and you just have to be comfortable enough to follow your feelings without letting self imposed, largely intellectual walls stand in your way. Sure they make excellent speed bumps, but you'll let people know how you feel..that's just the way you are.

So...I guess what I'm getting to is don't force yourself to go out, but don't discount the idea just because you're not comfortable with 1 of the ways it might turn out.

a wise man once said...

[guinnesscub.livejournal.com]

A wise man once said...
"To manage our relationships with others we must first manage our relationship with ourselves."

what? It's been 24 years and have YET to understand and manage myself....so, in other words, Brodie, I will never be able to take on a real relationship..LOL

Hey, we've all been in the same boat...and other cliches..so don't sweat it, buddy. Keep yourself entertained and busy and all will fall in place...blah blah

hey, it's true as rain.

Understand you fully my good friend

[zer0ith.livejournal.com]

When you say that that it is all peer pressure, you are mostly right, but you must also remember its society's fault. Yes we may have come a long way since the days of stonings and burning at the stakes. But you must remember one thing society says that in order to be successful you must be with someone and live the rest of your exsistance with a spouce. It however has changed within the past little while to encorporate people with different sexual preferences, but still none the less they still expect you to get "hitched" up, weither it be legal or not (not getting into legality issues). But what it all comes down to is that you are seeing everyone you know in relationships and you feel left out.

Now what I also think is that because of your mothers (god bless her soul) *cant find the right word* "bad luck" with men, it is also harder for you as well. You know you dont want to get hurt, but you also know at the same time that you can get hurt. You are trying to protect yourself. Which is normal, none of us want a bad relationship.

I guess the best thing i can say, is that if your happy with who you are and what your doing with your life then its all good. Eventually the right person will come. Remember I was once like this too brod. Never though I would date many people in my life. But the primary thing is that you can still be happy without a special someone in your life at this moment. I KNOW you will meet someone special. Your a great guy and anyone who doesnt want to be with you can just kiss my ass!

*all views and opinions expressed are that of Paul's. I appoligize for any comments that may have been offensive. They were not intended to be that way