2003: Year in Review
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nfotxnI feel as if 2003 was a watershed year for me. There are many indications that I've finally escaped the shackles of my former youth and am headed straight into my self-centred 20's. If you believe in 7 year cycles it means that I will be entering my 4th as I'm turning 22 on the 7th of February, 2004.
Despite my occasionaly belly-aching moving to the UK was probably the best thing that's happened to me in a long time. Living at home with Mom essentially twiddling my thumbs was doing shit all for my self-confidence and infact keeping me in a sort of semi-depressed coma. I did some really lame things too, but nothing that I particularly care to repeat. All of which were definite learning experiences.
I plan on spending most of my remaining winter and spring in the UK and end this trip by going to Queen's Day in Amsterdam. Alternately I'll take my ticket home near the end of February and enroll in nightschool for the Spring/Summer term. It's more a matter of feeling prepared to really go to school and work hard. Living on my own here is supposed to be practice. But it's hard, I've always been pretty undisciplined at the things I don't want to do. I'd perfect the art of lounging around, chatting on IM and eating frosting out of the tin... if I could. But real world constraints prevent that in this cruel, cruel world of ours.
The idea is to finally get myself the edumacation that I so sorely need come some time in 2005. Same old story really, although I've only been at this contemplating my navel thing since about 2000. Aren't you expected to make some sorts of horrible life-altering mistakes that create the adult whom you'll become during the the ages from 18 to 21? So far so good!
I think the most important part of 2004 for me is hoepfully the chance to love somebody. I've had my fair share of sticky and sweaty romps in the sack. But come on, it's the 21st century. Us Generation-Y gays or whatever have had it right easy growing up, so far. I would say I'm pretty emotionally with it these days. I feel that ultimately I will be able to find Somebody to love for a while. Here's hoping.
Despite my occasionaly belly-aching moving to the UK was probably the best thing that's happened to me in a long time. Living at home with Mom essentially twiddling my thumbs was doing shit all for my self-confidence and infact keeping me in a sort of semi-depressed coma. I did some really lame things too, but nothing that I particularly care to repeat. All of which were definite learning experiences.
I plan on spending most of my remaining winter and spring in the UK and end this trip by going to Queen's Day in Amsterdam. Alternately I'll take my ticket home near the end of February and enroll in nightschool for the Spring/Summer term. It's more a matter of feeling prepared to really go to school and work hard. Living on my own here is supposed to be practice. But it's hard, I've always been pretty undisciplined at the things I don't want to do. I'd perfect the art of lounging around, chatting on IM and eating frosting out of the tin... if I could. But real world constraints prevent that in this cruel, cruel world of ours.
The idea is to finally get myself the edumacation that I so sorely need come some time in 2005. Same old story really, although I've only been at this contemplating my navel thing since about 2000. Aren't you expected to make some sorts of horrible life-altering mistakes that create the adult whom you'll become during the the ages from 18 to 21? So far so good!
I think the most important part of 2004 for me is hoepfully the chance to love somebody. I've had my fair share of sticky and sweaty romps in the sack. But come on, it's the 21st century. Us Generation-Y gays or whatever have had it right easy growing up, so far. I would say I'm pretty emotionally with it these days. I feel that ultimately I will be able to find Somebody to love for a while. Here's hoping.
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Perfect Technique...
Date: 2004-01-02 02:09 pm (UTC)I'm working on this as I type. I've already found the best way to lounge is naked. You must be naked to truely appreciate the lounging.
As far as finding someone, it will happen. It takes time, and you can't force it. Though you do need to be able to recognize it when it happens. That's another part of growing up, no one can teach you.
Re: Perfect Technique...
Date: 2004-01-02 02:53 pm (UTC)I think I'm way better at love these days. It's more of a waiting and having it happen thing right now. The scene hasn't been set right just yet.