Not All Singing, All Dancing
Aug. 19th, 2004 09:08 pmI had a huge fight with my brother tonight. It was of course over something incredibly petty and stupid. And yet it turned into another one of our athletic and inflamitory debate fests. I was actually driven to tears because I realized that really this entire altercation had lots to do with the stress both of us were keeping. Of course it was not until this point that the tone of discussion returned to something more humane. He gave me a hug, wiped my tears and we talked. Those skeletons truly weighing heavy on our minds released. Just silly things that really don't matter (too much) like time and money.
And then at dinner the smell of the BBQ, a fresh and unseasonably cool August evening and the taste of my banana heightened to a near feeling of synesthesia. That is to say that in my life eating is just so very related to stress. And that the effects of adrenalin are potent, especially in our sendentary and indulged lives as the supposed "post-modern" or whatever term our lives today are to be quantified under.
And then at dinner the smell of the BBQ, a fresh and unseasonably cool August evening and the taste of my banana heightened to a near feeling of synesthesia. That is to say that in my life eating is just so very related to stress. And that the effects of adrenalin are potent, especially in our sendentary and indulged lives as the supposed "post-modern" or whatever term our lives today are to be quantified under.
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Date: 2004-08-19 06:16 pm (UTC)Luckily we ended our "discussion" with laughter.
Don't even get me started on food/stress/emotions.
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Date: 2004-08-19 06:26 pm (UTC)I think as far as having a vice to rely on when you're stressed I'm glad to be bedfellows with food and music. So really music AND food are my boyfriends ;) Bettter than, say, crack and cigarettes.
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Date: 2004-08-19 06:36 pm (UTC)Food as a vice can cause problems. It took me a long time to come to grips with my emotions and the effect that had on my eating, and now I have a gym membership that I never use, and the knowledge that I have to lose a lot of weight.
But food is yummy after all.
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Date: 2004-08-19 06:53 pm (UTC)As for gym memberships, they are also not a vice without rammifications. It's much easier to become a carb/calorie/fat counting mirror fiend than I think most people imagine. Especially when the mirror agrees with you. Not to say that I don't approve of feeling and looking good. It's just that a vice, at least in my life, indicates an imbalance and an unacknowledged or realized feeling about that something. But I could rant on about the human condition until the cows come home.
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Date: 2004-08-19 08:39 pm (UTC)A few weeks ago I told my sister to either get out or find another housemate, I was leaving. Similar to your resolution, it involved a lot of kleenex on my part, (and a call to my mom to calm me down).
I'm glad you were able to resolve things, sometimes it just needs a good argument.
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